Pandemic Artist Relief: Music in the Time of Covid​-​19

by Gardenhead Records

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1.
i could hear you coming, so i hid by the couch you were talking so loudly, i don't know what about but you were drunker than high school, self-conscious and sweet i never ever felt so cool disguised in your sheets but i'm a constant headache, a tooth out of line they try to make you regret it you tell 'em, "no, not this time" i'm just a constant headache, a dead pet device you hang me up unfinished with the better part of me no longer mine and then you finally found me, pretending to sleep you said such nice things about me, i felt guilty and cheap you took two steps to the kitchen and just stared at the sink i couldn't hold back a smile, i still wish i could have seen you having sex in the morning, your love was foreign to me it made me think maybe human's not such a bad thing to be but i just laid there in protest, entirely fucked it's such a stubborn reminder one perfect night's not enough it's just a constant headache, a tooth out of line they try to make you regret it you tell 'em, "no, not this time" it's just a constant headache, a dead pet device you hang me up unfinished with the better part of me no longer mine
2.
george lifts his head to see if it weighs the same as it used to believes it cost him more to get here than it appears to split even with his time left over from all of his waste believes he can’t be told to own up for where he’s been it gets quiet after a while, alone wishes he could stand on his own george goes to bed after another day of rest he woke up to find that he was down he woke up to find that he let them down now he takes all of his meals out of their mouths the longer he thinks of it the lower he sinks but says change is still a waste of his time
3.
all my life there you go oh please stay just this once anyway all my life there they go oh please stay for the night anyway
4.
Phase 04:03
hair in the same place we speak the same way running the same pace lose sight of bathing when does the wind change to tell us we're fading away wait for the decay and i'm mapping a route i'm asking for an easy way out what's done is done over and over all you become over and over stuck in the bad thoughts talk yourself into knots when was the last time you trusted you'd be fine run in your own time and you're shaking now until you find there's no escaping i'm mapping a route i'm asking for an easy way out what's done is done over and over all you become over and over i'm mapping a route i'm asking for an easy way out what's done is done over and over all you become over and over
5.
i'm waiting for the blood to gush and spill onto the blades and the things that dwell inside to feed and go their merry way done searching for a method to spill all my brains into the blue long are the days of dread sun rolling up a hill and tumbles down but up over the hills and far away that's where the children always play kathy ran from the rabbits that came frothing from the pond but her last surprise is supine hidden somewhere in the fronds i'm sorry for the things i am i hope someday you'll understand gone are the days of dread when can i pay my bills and even out but up over the hills and far away that's where the faeries always play oh to be a crooked man and to have walked a crooked mile oh to be the rotten flesh as the bugs crawl out of smile i'm waiting for the crows to come and eat me up, 'twill be great fun long are the days of dread corpse rolling up a hill and tumbles down but up over the hills and far away that's where the children always play
6.
rollercoaster anticipation with a hint of summer the perfect recipe for any lover looking to find themselves lost in a forever that lasts like the weather rollercoaster it started and then ended even faster it didn't take very long to discover that their voices could get a whole lot louder than they had thought rubbing your hands over your eyes starts a fire you used to rub down the street at night, but now you hardly go outside oh no, oh no rollercoaster she hates the way he has to hover over her like a plane, as if he's undercover she goes insane, he says he doesn't love her enough to stay rollercoaster she's done with playing rough and asks for closure when he does not show up they both get colder he thinks he's warm enough but never sober he's only out of luck rubbing your hands over your eyes starts a fire you used to rub down the street at night, but now you hardly go outside oh no!
7.
i come home in the morning light my mother says, "when you gonna live your life right?" oh mother dear, we're not the fortunate ones and girls, they wanna have fun oh, girls just wanna have fun the phone rings in the middle of the night my father yells, "what you gonna do with your life?" oh daddy dear, you know you're still number one but girls, they wanna have fun oh girls just wanna have.. that's all they really want some fun when the working day is done oh girls they wanna have fun oh girls just wanna have fun girls, they want, wanna have fun girls, wanna have some boys take a beautiful girl and hide her away from the rest of the world i wanna be the one to walk in the sun oh girls they wanna have fun oh girls just wanna have that's all they really want some fun when the working day is done oh girls they wanna have fun oh girls just wanna have fun girls, they want, wanna have fun girls, wanna have they just wanna, just wanna when the working day is done oh girls just wanna have fun
8.
Hole 04:42
i sleep, i shout still running from that house i'm picking up the pieces i shout, i scream i'm pushing everything i don't know what i'm doing i scream, i'm hung i know i am so young i don't know where i'm going i'm hung, i'm cast i can't escape my past i'm molded in it's image my hole, my hole it always takes it's toll i wish i didn't stain you my hole, my hole is out of my control i hope i never drain you
9.
i never thought i'd die alone i laughed the loudest, who would've known? i trace the cord back to the wall no wonder it was never plugged in at all i took my time, i hurried up the choice was mine, i didn't think enough i'm too depressed to go on you'll be sorry when i'm gone i never conquered, rarely came 16 just held such better days days when i still felt alive i couldn't wait to get outside the world was wide, too late to try the tour was over, we'd survived i couldn't wait 'til i got home to pass the time in my room alone i never thought i'd die alone another six months i'll be unknown give all my things to all my friends you'll never step foot in my room again you'll close it off, board it up remember the time that i spilled that cup of apple juice in the hall please tell mom this is not her fault i never conquered, rarely came 16 just held such better days days when i still felt alive i couldn't wait to get outside the world was wide, too late to try the tour was over, we'd survived i couldn't wait 'til i got home to pass the time in my room alone i never conquered, rarely came tomorrow holds such better days days when i still feel alive when i can't wait to get outside the world is wide, the time goes by the tour is over, i've survived i can't wait 'til i get home to pass the time in my room alone
10.
when i was young i had no answers always coming up for air always cutting my own hair i'm running into doors now because you are not around naked in the night with the water falling down i am falling down you push me, i am a boulder spin me out of control 'cause i cannot handle getting older so tumble me down, down, down and i'm at a loss for words again and it's only 'cause i think i've reached the end do we have to settle down? do we have to settle down? do we have to know right now? i didn't think i'd be drinking cups of coffee every day but it's a choice and it's a voice and i am so where i belong you push me, i am a boulder spin me out of control 'cause i cannot handle getting older so tumble me down, down, down
11.
you said you wanted pretty colours so here's your world i hope it covers everything with thoughts and meaning shapes and patterns, words and feeling again we hide inside our minds chasing sunlight round horizons watching clouds make distant islands time stands still we overtake it through fool's spring we won't mistake it again we hide inside our minds now and then we find our way outside by latching on to passers-by you said you wanted pretty colours so here's your world i hope it covers the cost
12.
turn out the light and close your eyes and hold me next to you dream of my smile, sense of my voice and feel my blood rush through my arms and my legs, my hand and my toes my feet, my fingers too i'll tell you softly as you fall asleep i'll only dream of you lazy and hazy, tired and confused but still my thought is clear so much time has passed on from now and still i will be here laughing and talking and yelling and crying and dreaming i am with you i'll tell you softly as you fall asleep i'll only dream of you i'll tell you again as you fall asleep i'll only dream of you
13.
By The Sea 02:51
repeating in my head whispers of the demons leave nothing to be said they'll go away someday cause all i want to be is somewhere by the sea echoes of the waves wind chimes ring ashore cause it's so homely there you'll see, by the sea cause it's so homely there you'll see by the sea leave without a trace god only knows the time save me from this place and take me far away cause all i want to be is somewhere by the sea echoes of the waves wind chimes ring ashore cause it's so homely there you'll see, by the sea cause it's so homely there you'll see by the sea
14.
Shallow Lake 03:29
sit outside on the pavement warm wind starts the replacement i don't know how to face it bugs crawl out for some space and i fell in wandering did you know where i'd go shallow lake i'm ok see some rocks out back wanna know where they're at so i dig it's all me carve away all the old stuff making time for the new one following seems too deep
15.
bottle up and explode over and over keep the troublemaker below put it away and check out for the day in for a round of overexposure the thing mother nature provides to get up and go bottle up and explode, seeing stars surrounding you red white and blue you look at him like you've never known him but i know for a fact that you have the last time you cried who'd you think was inside? thinking that you were about to come over but i'm tired now of waiting for you you never show bottle up and go, if you're gonna hide, it's up to you i'm coming through bottle up and go i can make it outside i'll get through becoming you
16.
sitting on my bedroom floor feeling all alone it's been three weeks since you've been gone and i'm wondering how you're doing i hope you're okay because i'm sick of being in love now you're gone and i give up i don't want to see you every time i close my eyes i never meant to make you cry but now there's tears in your eyes sometimes i wish that i had never met you sometimes i wish that i was dead too because i'm sick of being in love now you're gone and i give up i don't want to see you every time i close my eyes
17.
Persephone 03:27
it's been days since i've left my bedroom i feel like i'm digging a grave so many memories from a past life the moment's over i'll never see anyone i take a bath as if i'm drowing so maybe someone will appear i'm not cut out from isolation i'm never better i'm a loaded gun mornings into afternoons enough of aching now an increase in attitude enough of aching now will it last forever? will i fall apart by then? by then i'll be a husk by then i'll be a husk and then what?
18.
Mouth 03:14
i was my soul unturned around and you called on me to make a sound i was thinking of something, i tried to spit it out but it was in your mouth you're an inaudible shout a look who's not laughing now for as long as you're allowed
19.
Godspeed 01:32
finally he said why do we try? for us and them for us and them finally he said why do we try? for us and them for us and them let me unwind pour me some wine aaahhhh
20.
Pollen 03:38
well oh no i'm sorry, there's no one left to hear and if someone was here, ya know, i doubt they'd even care you swallow your words with that bottle of red wine and hold it in with the everything you wish you could say tonight well please excuse my isolation, as if i really care excuse my determination, as if it's really there send help and i'll send a parade i flaunt my rage like a masquerade i'm losing my mind one day at a time well oh no i'm sorry, it's not that i don't care you're just the personification of all my greatest fears you threw up those words with that bottle of red wine with reassurance that one day you'll be alright
21.
we left ourselves with no cover hiding from the truth of what's begun will we have to change our faces everytime, without a meaning i feel that my thoughts can't be recognized no words to speak i'm caught speechless we see ourselves through a looking glass a stain glass reality shimmered in the light making me blind smiling with no eyes guide me borrowed the steps to fill in hollowed imprints left behind so much to find, no anchor tugging me down this can never be resolved when can't focus on what's in front of us we see ourselves through a looking glass dreams that can never be, shattered the walls broke them down reality comes rushing back found myself in the now, don't follow in the footsteps of someone when it's evident you can't fill their shoes guide us tell us where to go when it's dark be the light so we can find our way a borrower of intentions a follower to destinations, impulsive to situations, disrupt my flow kill all my creation couldn't confide through the divide a waste of time, fell off the line to find the true meaning of a word, individual, no dependency, a discrepancy in both factors, follow our fantasies, exist in false pretenses no we can't dance around the subject of losing ourselves in it, we can't focus on the subject at hand, and i too oblivious or is it all in you, cause in the end we'll both pretend that we're the problem taking off us your go too played it off for long enough, don't treat this like a show, act to seem more pleasing, demeaning is you definition
22.
can't feel the knives in my back anymore lucky bastard's fine and dine is my home trust or love, can't define it anymore closed the gates on that design i wish i could be as perfect as her but i'm always gonna be a little less to you what you would call your your perfect mess second best, i'll lay to rest am i your one and only your dearest nobody a beautiful mess, an oddity tricked into love but that's not for me unable to breathe that's what i always will be a rotting rose in your favorite tea my petals fall but dare i speak dare i ask for love or peace scream to the sky, but it's all in vain you wouldn't hear me anyway if i breathe my last ease my pain it won't even scratch, won't leave a trace am i your one and only your dearest nobody a beautiful mess, a novelty tricked into love but that's not for me unable to breathe i feel like i don't deserve what they have my dreams are forgotten i don't have the same luxury i'm volatile, i'm on my knees am i your one and only your dearest nobody a beautiful mess, a tragedy tricked into love but that's not for me unable to breathe unable to breathe dear god i'm on my knees i'm begging you please let me breathe
23.
Borrower 06:04
we left ourselves with no cover hiding the truth from what’s begun will we have to change our faces everytime, without a meaning I feel that my thoughts can’t be recognized no words to speak I’m caught speechless We see ourselves through a looking glass a stain glass reality shimmered in the light making me blind smiling with no eyes guide me borrowed the steps to fill in hollowed imprints left behind so much to find, no anchor tugging me down this can never be resolved when can’t focus on what’s in front of us we see ourselves through a looking glass dreams that can never be, shattered the walls broke them down reality comes rushing back found myself in the now, don’t follow in the footsteps of someone when it’s evident you can’t fill their shoes guide us tell us where to go when it’s dark be the light so we can find our way a borrower of intentions a follower to destinations, impulsive to situations, disrupt my flow kill all my creation couldn’t confide through the divide a waste of time, fell off the line to find the true meaning of a word, individual, no dependency, a discrepancy in both factors, follow our fantasies, exist in false pretenses no we can’t dance around the subject of losing ourselves in it, we can’t focus on the subject at hand, and i too oblivious or is it all in you, cause in the end we’ll both pretend that we’re the problem taking off us your go too played it off for long enough, don’t treat this like a show, act to seem more pleasing, demeaning is your definition
24.
i found a reason to keep living oh, and the reason, dear, is you oh, i found a reason to keep singing of, and the reason, dear, is you oh, i do believe if you don't like things you leave for some place you're never gone before honey, i found a reason to keep living and you know the reason, dear, it's you and i've walked down life's lonely highways hand in hand with myself and i realized how many paths have crossed between us oh, i do believe you are what you perceive what comes is better than what came before oh, i do believe you are what you perceive what comes is better than what came before and you'd better come, come, come, come to me better come, come, come to me yeah come, come, come, come to me
25.
time and time again, the construct, the pendulum
26.
Dating App 02:53
we matched ninety percent so i don't know where they went why bother to text when nothing else happens next? they say it's the way to find somebody today they said it's a snap but i get nothing but nothing on the dating app i used my best looking images but the options were limited so i rewrite what i'm here about and the five things i can't live without seems like i'm wasting my time again seeking women or seeking men it's all supposed to fall in your lap but it's too boring never scoring on the dating app just got to get in the habit just go for broke and go grab it who cares who's even my type don't get too choosy just swipe but it's hard to use this thing actively when no one seems to write back to me i guess i'm still crap at dating in real life and on the dating app maybe i write too many dumb details maybe that's not sexy to males or females ask friends to edit my profile help me present in the right style sit with me and be encouraging a forest god for my forraging but instead i'll just take a nap cause til now it's a whole lot of nada on the dating app i paid the monthly upgrading for six more months with no dating i know it works if you try more but i don't know what i try for so i don't bother to seek forget it for one more week i guess that's a wrap bad at this video game called the dating app they said it's a snatch it's all suposed to fall in your lap instead i'll just take a nap i guess that's a wrap how i'd fall into this trap wasting more brain cells on more fails on the dating app i guess i'm still crap at dating in real life and on the dating app

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A compilation to raise money for musicians who had shows cancelled due to the coronavirus pandemic. The tracks are songs and covers which are exclusively available here. All of the proceed are going to the artists! Help support musicians!!!!!

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released April 10, 2020

All tracks are original songs by the artists except for the following covers:
- Track 1 is originally by Joyce Manor
- Track 3 is originally by STRFKR
- Track 7 is originally by Cyndi Lauper
- Track 9 is originally by Blink-182
- Track 10 is originally by Another Michael
- Track 12 is originally by Julie Doiron
- Track 15 is originally by Elliott Smith
- Track 24 is originally by The Velvet Underground

Cover art by James Mendez (IG: @artbyjamesmendez) and Etai Fuchs

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