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i could hear you coming, so i hid by the couch
you were talking so loudly, i don't know what about
but you were drunker than high school, self-conscious and sweet
i never ever felt so cool disguised in your sheets
but i'm a constant headache, a tooth out of line
they try to make you regret it
you tell 'em, "no, not this time"
i'm just a constant headache, a dead pet device
you hang me up unfinished
with the better part of me no longer mine
and then you finally found me, pretending to sleep
you said such nice things about me, i felt guilty and cheap
you took two steps to the kitchen and just stared at the sink
i couldn't hold back a smile, i still wish i could have seen
you having sex in the morning, your love was foreign to me
it made me think maybe human's not such a bad thing to be
but i just laid there in protest, entirely fucked
it's such a stubborn reminder one perfect night's not enough
it's just a constant headache, a tooth out of line
they try to make you regret it
you tell 'em, "no, not this time"
it's just a constant headache, a dead pet device
you hang me up unfinished
with the better part of me no longer mine
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2. |
Rut - George Wakes Up
03:02
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george lifts his head to see if it weighs the same as it used to
believes it cost him more to get here than it appears
to split even with his time left over from all of his waste
believes he can’t be told to own up for where he’s been
it gets quiet after a while, alone
wishes he could stand on his own
george goes to bed after another day of rest
he woke up to find that he was down
he woke up to find that he let them down
now he takes all of his meals out of their mouths
the longer he thinks of it the lower he sinks but says change is still a waste of his time
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3. |
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all my life
there you go
oh please stay
just this once
anyway
all my life
there they go
oh please stay
for the night
anyway
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4. |
Bluish - Phase
04:03
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hair in the same place
we speak the same way
running the same pace
lose sight of bathing
when does the wind change
to tell us we're fading away
wait for the decay
and i'm mapping a route
i'm asking for an easy way out
what's done is done
over and over
all you become
over and over
stuck in the bad thoughts
talk yourself into knots
when was the last time
you trusted you'd be fine
run in your own time
and you're shaking now
until you find
there's no escaping
i'm mapping a route
i'm asking for an easy way out
what's done is done
over and over
all you become
over and over
i'm mapping a route
i'm asking for an easy way out
what's done is done
over and over
all you become
over and over
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5. |
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i'm waiting for the blood to
gush and spill onto the blades
and the things that dwell inside
to feed and go their merry way
done searching for a method to
spill all my brains into the blue
long are the days of dread
sun rolling up a hill and tumbles down
but up over the hills and far away
that's where the children always play
kathy ran from the rabbits that
came frothing from the pond
but her last surprise is supine
hidden somewhere in the fronds
i'm sorry for the things i am
i hope someday you'll understand
gone are the days of dread
when can i pay my bills and even out
but up over the hills and far away
that's where the faeries always play
oh to be a crooked man and to
have walked a crooked mile
oh to be the rotten flesh as the
bugs crawl out of smile
i'm waiting for the crows to come
and eat me up, 'twill be great fun
long are the days of dread
corpse rolling up a hill and tumbles down
but up over the hills and far away
that's where the children always play
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6. |
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rollercoaster
anticipation with a hint of summer
the perfect recipe for any lover
looking to find themselves lost in a forever
that lasts like the weather
rollercoaster
it started and then ended even faster
it didn't take very long to discover
that their voices could get a whole lot louder
than they had thought
rubbing your hands over your eyes starts a fire
you used to rub down the street at night,
but now you hardly go outside
oh no, oh no
rollercoaster
she hates the way he has to hover over
her like a plane, as if he's undercover
she goes insane, he says he doesn't love her
enough to stay
rollercoaster
she's done with playing rough
and asks for closure
when he does not show up
they both get colder
he thinks he's warm enough
but never sober
he's only out of luck
rubbing your hands over your eyes starts a fire
you used to rub down the street at night,
but now you hardly go outside
oh no!
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7. |
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i come home in the morning light
my mother says, "when you gonna live your life right?"
oh mother dear, we're not the fortunate ones
and girls, they wanna have fun
oh, girls just wanna have fun
the phone rings in the middle of the night
my father yells, "what you gonna do with your life?"
oh daddy dear, you know you're still number one
but girls, they wanna have fun
oh girls just wanna have..
that's all they really want
some fun
when the working day is done
oh girls they wanna have fun
oh girls just wanna have fun
girls, they want, wanna have fun
girls, wanna have
some boys take a beautiful girl
and hide her away from the rest of the world
i wanna be the one to walk in the sun
oh girls they wanna have fun
oh girls just wanna have
that's all they really want
some fun
when the working day is done
oh girls they wanna have fun
oh girls just wanna have fun
girls, they want, wanna have fun
girls, wanna have
they just wanna, just wanna
when the working day is done
oh girls just wanna have fun
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8. |
Etai - Hole
04:42
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i sleep, i shout
still running from that house
i'm picking up the pieces
i shout, i scream
i'm pushing everything
i don't know what i'm doing
i scream, i'm hung
i know i am so young
i don't know where i'm going
i'm hung, i'm cast
i can't escape my past
i'm molded in it's image
my hole, my hole
it always takes it's toll
i wish i didn't stain you
my hole, my hole
is out of my control
i hope i never drain you
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9. |
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i never thought i'd die alone
i laughed the loudest, who would've known?
i trace the cord back to the wall
no wonder it was never plugged in at all
i took my time, i hurried up
the choice was mine, i didn't think enough
i'm too depressed to go on
you'll be sorry when i'm gone
i never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
days when i still felt alive
i couldn't wait to get outside
the world was wide, too late to try
the tour was over, we'd survived
i couldn't wait 'til i got home
to pass the time in my room alone
i never thought i'd die alone
another six months i'll be unknown
give all my things to all my friends
you'll never step foot in my room again
you'll close it off, board it up
remember the time that i spilled that cup
of apple juice in the hall
please tell mom this is not her fault
i never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
days when i still felt alive
i couldn't wait to get outside
the world was wide, too late to try
the tour was over, we'd survived
i couldn't wait 'til i got home
to pass the time in my room alone
i never conquered, rarely came
tomorrow holds such better days
days when i still feel alive
when i can't wait to get outside
the world is wide, the time goes by
the tour is over, i've survived
i can't wait 'til i get home
to pass the time in my room alone
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10. |
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when i was young i had no answers
always coming up for air
always cutting my own hair
i'm running into doors now
because you are not around
naked in the night with the water falling down
i am falling down
you push me, i am a boulder
spin me out of control
'cause i cannot handle getting older
so tumble me down, down, down
and i'm at a loss for words again
and it's only 'cause i think i've reached the end
do we have to settle down?
do we have to settle down?
do we have to know right now?
i didn't think i'd be drinking cups of coffee every day
but it's a choice
and it's a voice
and i am so
where i belong
you push me, i am a boulder
spin me out of control
'cause i cannot handle getting older
so tumble me down, down, down
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11. |
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you said you wanted pretty colours
so here's your world i hope it covers
everything with thoughts and meaning
shapes and patterns, words and feeling
again we hide inside our minds
chasing sunlight round horizons
watching clouds make distant islands
time stands still we overtake it
through fool's spring we won't mistake it
again we hide inside our minds
now and then we find our way outside
by latching on to passers-by
you said you wanted pretty colours
so here's your world i hope it covers
the cost
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12. |
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turn out the light and close your eyes
and hold me next to you
dream of my smile, sense of my voice
and feel my blood rush through
my arms and my legs, my hand and my toes
my feet, my fingers too
i'll tell you softly as you fall asleep
i'll only dream of you
lazy and hazy, tired and confused
but still my thought is clear
so much time has passed on from now
and still i will be here
laughing and talking and yelling and crying
and dreaming i am with you
i'll tell you softly as you fall asleep
i'll only dream of you
i'll tell you again as you fall asleep
i'll only dream of you
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13. |
Shnayto - By The Sea
02:51
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repeating in my head
whispers of the demons
leave nothing to be said
they'll go away someday
cause all i want to be
is somewhere by the sea
echoes of the waves
wind chimes ring ashore
cause it's so homely there
you'll see, by the sea
cause it's so homely there
you'll see by the sea
leave without a trace
god only knows the time
save me from this place
and take me far away
cause all i want to be
is somewhere by the sea
echoes of the waves
wind chimes ring ashore
cause it's so homely there
you'll see, by the sea
cause it's so homely there
you'll see by the sea
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14. |
Swim Camp - Shallow Lake
03:29
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sit outside on the pavement
warm wind starts the replacement
i don't know how to face it
bugs crawl out for some space and
i fell in
wandering
did you know
where i'd go
shallow lake
i'm ok
see some rocks out back
wanna know where they're at
so i dig
it's all me
carve away all the old stuff
making time for the new one
following
seems too deep
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15. |
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bottle up and explode over and over
keep the troublemaker below
put it away and check out for the day
in for a round of overexposure
the thing mother nature provides
to get up and go
bottle up and explode, seeing stars surrounding you
red white and blue
you look at him like you've never known him
but i know for a fact that you have
the last time you cried
who'd you think was inside?
thinking that you were about to come over
but i'm tired now of waiting for you
you never show
bottle up and go, if you're gonna hide, it's up to you
i'm coming through
bottle up and go
i can make it outside
i'll get through
becoming you
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16. |
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sitting on my bedroom floor
feeling all alone
it's been three weeks
since you've been gone
and i'm wondering how you're doing
i hope you're okay
because i'm sick of being in love
now you're gone and i give up
i don't want to see you
every time i close my eyes
i never meant to make you cry
but now there's tears in your eyes
sometimes i wish that i had never met you
sometimes i wish that i was dead too
because i'm sick of being in love
now you're gone and i give up
i don't want to see you
every time i close my eyes
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17. |
Jungheim - Persephone
03:27
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it's been days since i've left my bedroom
i feel like i'm digging a grave
so many memories from a past life
the moment's over
i'll never see anyone
i take a bath as if i'm drowing
so maybe someone will appear
i'm not cut out from isolation
i'm never better
i'm a loaded gun
mornings into afternoons
enough of aching now
an increase in attitude
enough of aching now
will it last forever?
will i fall apart by then?
by then i'll be a husk
by then i'll be a husk
and then what?
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18. |
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i was my soul unturned around
and you called on me to make a sound
i was thinking of something,
i tried to spit it out
but it was in your mouth
you're an inaudible shout
a look who's not laughing now
for as long as you're allowed
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19. |
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finally he said
why do we try?
for us and them
for us and them
finally he said
why do we try?
for us and them
for us and them
let me unwind
pour me some wine
aaahhhh
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20. |
Joynoise - Pollen
03:38
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well oh no i'm sorry, there's no one left to hear
and if someone was here, ya know, i doubt they'd even care
you swallow your words with that bottle of red wine
and hold it in with the everything you wish you could say tonight
well please excuse my isolation, as if i really care
excuse my determination, as if it's really there
send help and i'll send a parade
i flaunt my rage like a masquerade
i'm losing my mind one day at a time
well oh no i'm sorry, it's not that i don't care
you're just the personification of all my greatest fears
you threw up those words with that bottle of red wine
with reassurance that one day you'll be alright
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we left ourselves with no cover
hiding from the truth of what's
begun will we have to change
our faces everytime, without a
meaning i feel that my
thoughts can't be recognized
no words to speak i'm caught
speechless we see ourselves
through a looking glass a stain
glass reality
shimmered in the light making
me blind smiling with no eyes
guide me borrowed the steps
to fill in hollowed imprints left
behind so much to find, no
anchor tugging me down this
can never be resolved when
can't focus on what's in front of us
we see ourselves through a
looking glass dreams that can
never be, shattered the walls
broke them down reality
comes rushing back found
myself in the now, don't follow
in the footsteps of someone
when it's evident you can't fill their shoes
guide us tell us where to go
when it's dark be the light so
we can find our way
a borrower of intentions
a follower to destinations,
impulsive to situations, disrupt
my flow kill all my creation
couldn't confide through the
divide a waste of time, fell off
the line to find the true
meaning of a word, individual,
no dependency, a discrepancy
in both factors, follow our
fantasies, exist in false pretenses
no we can't dance around the
subject of losing ourselves in
it, we can't focus on the
subject at hand, and i too
oblivious or is it all in you,
cause in the end we'll both
pretend that we're the problem
taking off us your go too
played it off for long enough,
don't treat this like a show, act
to seem more pleasing,
demeaning is you definition
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22. |
Lake Alden - Borrower
06:04
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we left ourselves with no cover hiding the truth from what’s begun will we have to change our faces everytime, without a meaning I feel that my thoughts can’t be recognized no words to speak I’m caught speechless We see ourselves through a looking glass a stain glass reality
shimmered in the light making me blind smiling with no eyes guide me borrowed the steps to fill in hollowed imprints left behind so much to find, no anchor tugging me down this can never be resolved when can’t focus on what’s in front of us
we see ourselves through a looking glass dreams that can never be, shattered the walls broke them down reality comes rushing back found myself in the now, don’t follow in the footsteps of someone when it’s evident you can’t fill their shoes
guide us tell us where to go when it’s dark be the light so we can find our way
a borrower of intentions
a follower to destinations, impulsive to situations, disrupt my flow kill all my creation
couldn’t confide through the divide a waste of time, fell off the line to find the true meaning of a word, individual, no dependency, a discrepancy in both factors, follow our fantasies, exist in false pretenses
no we can’t dance around the subject of losing ourselves in it, we can’t focus on the subject at hand, and i too oblivious or is it all in you, cause in the end we’ll both pretend that we’re the problem
taking off us your go too played it off for long enough, don’t treat this like a show, act to seem more pleasing, demeaning is your definition
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23. |
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i found a reason to keep living
oh, and the reason, dear, is you
oh, i found a reason to keep singing
of, and the reason, dear, is you
oh, i do believe
if you don't like things you leave
for some place you're never gone before
honey, i found a reason to keep living
and you know the reason, dear, it's you
and i've walked down life's lonely highways
hand in hand with myself
and i realized
how many paths have crossed between us
oh, i do believe
you are what you perceive
what comes is better than what came before
oh, i do believe
you are what you perceive
what comes is better than what came before
and you'd better come, come, come, come to me
better come, come, come to me
yeah come, come, come, come to me
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24. |
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time and time again, the construct, the pendulum
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25. |
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we matched ninety percent
so i don't know where they went
why bother to text
when nothing else happens next?
they say it's the way
to find somebody today
they said it's a snap
but i get nothing but nothing on the dating app
i used my best looking images
but the options were limited
so i rewrite what i'm here about
and the five things i can't live without
seems like i'm wasting my time again
seeking women or seeking men
it's all supposed to fall in your lap
but it's too boring never scoring on the dating app
just got to get in the habit
just go for broke and go grab it
who cares who's even my type
don't get too choosy just swipe
but it's hard to use this thing actively
when no one seems to write back to me
i guess i'm still crap
at dating in real life and on the dating app
maybe i write too many dumb details
maybe that's not sexy to males or females
ask friends to edit my profile
help me present in the right style
sit with me and be encouraging
a forest god for my forraging
but instead i'll just take a nap
cause til now it's a whole lot of nada on the dating app
i paid the monthly upgrading
for six more months with no dating
i know it works if you try more
but i don't know what i try for
so i don't bother to seek
forget it for one more week
i guess that's a wrap
bad at this video game called the dating app
they said it's a snatch
it's all suposed to fall in your lap
instead i'll just take a nap
i guess that's a wrap
how i'd fall into this trap
wasting more brain cells on more fails on the dating app
i guess i'm still crap
at dating in real life and on the dating app
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